well i just got back about an hour ago from retreat this weekend which was AMAZING!! lemme just say! i loved it!! tehehe me and steph and kat drove down to willow run and then we had to eat dinner with random people we didn't know and i got stuck with the two strangest boys i have met in the longest while.... yeah haha :) still they were nice and we had a good time. saturday we had session and then lunch and then free time for about 5 HOURS!! i had no idea what we would even do that whole time!! me and kat spent a good majority of it playing knock out with all the boys in the gym.. yeah and we dominated.. just sayin ;) hahaha but seriously they were suprised we made the top four and stuff haha it was awesommmme! then we had another session which was crazy awesome. for me i really got out of the lesson was forgiveness and how crucial it is to our spiritual walk. you can't grow spiritually unless you truely forgive and loves those that hurt you. that kinda relates to my room mate situation right now. i'm back in the dorm by myself right now.. and that's how i like it. i dont really wanna deal with anyone's drama or listen to chelsea complain. i'm just not in the mood to be brought down ya know? oi. hopefully this drama stuff gets better cause if it doesn't (and i know i told chelsea i wouldn't) but i will leave and i will move to texas. period. i wont deal with crap anymore. anyways back to retreat though. i need to forgive them. so i'm working on that. piece by piece. it's hard when you come back and chelsea's trashed the room and put all her crap on your desk and your text book goes mixing and... ugh. freakin piss me off sometimes. but retreat. saturday ended with a bonfire. dance party. and then me and christy riding out to town to get milkshakes. sunday we woke up got breakfast. went to session. then left. i got home today and hung with my family for like an hour and a half. we went to mexico restaurant for dinner. it was really funn! now i'm back in the dorm. bleh.
so something that's been eating away at me. since colin left this past christmas and like it's always kinda sad when he leaves, but this time i dunno. i legit like hard core cried. i miss that boy. but usually that passes without a thought. well like i think about it, but i put it to the back of my head. but i dunno i haven't been able to this time. i dunno. it's weird. and like i dunno, i usuallly like seeing him, but it's never been something that i'm like omgsh i wanna go see colin like right now and that's how i feel right now. i just wannt be with him. i dont even know if he wants me to be around, he acted excited and everything. but he could have just been being nice. i dunno. it's like that's my best friend ya know? oi. i just gahh.
in time God will tell me if moving to Texas is the right move for me. for now i'll just keep praying on it.
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