i love my friends. the ones that are always there :) the ones that no matter what will never treat you any differently and will always stand by your side when you need them the most. the ones that you can honestly say that you have spilled your heart to and know they would never want to hurt you. the friends you can have confidence that you are gonna get married and have kids and still will be best friends.



even if they are tiny.

but let me say. i love all my friends. all of them :)

Coming

So I have to say that I'm better about blogging when I'm at school hahaha but I wanna fill errybody in about what's going on with Marti's house and how excited I am about it!! Hopefully tomorrow I will have time!! Goodnightt!! Love youu!!!!!

:)

he's coming.
later on
i mean.

he'll come shining.
past that ones
who couldn't compare.

he'll be there.
the only one i see.
and nothing
not one thing
will keep him away.

i have to believe
that he's coming
i mean.
if i didn't
then surely
i wouldn't hope
and dream of him.

but for now
God
fill that hole.

better still
be that hole
forever.

so i may or may not have a slight obsession with weheartit.com... just sayin :)
here's a couple of my favorites from today :)






none of them really have too much in common other than the fact that i really like them... and my downloads says that those are only what four of the one hundred and two that i saved on my computer today :) tehehehehehe

tonight i will be working a youth lock in at the church in lynchburg that i've been going to. i'm excited. hopefully the kids like it. gahhh i'm kinda nervous. and then i'll be back tomorrow and do some nappin and studying and then hanging out with hannah and uriah and allyson and jeremy. it's weird i really didn't think i would be getting close with anyone in the little bit of time i had left. but i ended up getting really close to them. especially hannah. it makes my heart happy. and ps i dunno if i've told you but i'm gonna be a prayer leader next year!! ahhh!! i'm soo stoked!! i'm kinda scared because it's like a ton of scripture to memorize which i know i'll do but like i'm kinda like ahhh what if the girls dont like me ya know? hopefully that wont be a problem. i'm a generally fun person yeah? so whatever i'm just gonna trust in God and know that He is gonna give me the words to say to these girls because i'm going to be growing in my faith all the time and im praying that God will work through me and build up theirs too :)

i love you mucho and richmond dont miss me too much longer cause i'll be home tuesday!!

may i just say...

i'm just happy :) thanks friends :)

drama

some girls are just way too into drama. it blows my mind. i dont understand. why would you wanna put yourself into a situation between other people that you have no business being in? it's unnecessary stress. like seriously? i mean i'm sure there are guys that do it, but thank the Lord i have my choice girl friends that i'm really close to and don't have to deal with that stupid crap. honestly. and how can you tell someone what to do? especially now? um i'm not sure if you've noticed but we're in college and live on our own now. for reals umm yeah i'm pretty sure we can make our own decisions on how we want to approach confrontation. we all have our own way of dealing with things and my lanta if someone wants to get the advice of others on a particular situation then they should be able to. and you know what else FRIENDS AREN'T PROPERTY! they are people and have their own free will and no one has to report to anyone about who they can and cannot say hey to or hang out with. ridiculous. that's petty. it's also not practical to ask questions if you dont wanna know the answer. i understand that yes sometimes it's hurtful, but you asked. how can you be mad when you asked? and how can you expect someone to want to be with you when you gang up on them. that's asking too much. i just feel like it isn't necessary. it's none of my business but my day when you say that i'm one of the people that say you can't hang out that's a little o.d. i dont do anything to anyone but be nice. rawr.
again i'm glad that i couldn't care less what any says about me. i'm over girls and their stupid petty drama. i'm so glad the Lord blessed me that way. after everything i've been through He brought me out on top. thank you God.

rawrr

i love my friends and i wanna hang out, but the work has piled up. i went this whole semester with like no work and now.. ugh. stress to the max. and on top of that i'm ready to kick my roomates. they are loud all the time, like when i'm trying to sleep or study or whatever. and the room is friggin messy as i dont know what! it's ridiculous!! im sad to leave my friends here, but man oh man am i ready to get the heck outta that room!! i got my prayer leader form in yesterday, so hopefully i'll get that, and if not then it wasn't meant to be and maybe i'll try again next semester. i'm not worried about it. i love you!!

Satan will not win

we all struggle. everyday. but im done letting this sin have me in guilt. it will not pass. bam sucka. bam.


me and God will be this toilet paper no longer because of this.

dahh :)

yo dudee, it's been like eight and a half years and i should really be doing homework right now but whatevskis ;) so yuhh umm this weekend was tight. friday night i went to the movie night thing with luke and watched tron (which SUCKED) and unstoppable which we sat and made fun of the whole time :) it maade me happy. and then saturday i woke and kat texted me and wanted to get lunch and i was down cause i was like starving so we went to pueblo and i had arroz con pollo, mi favorito :) then we had to drive and get lost to pick up one of her friends... it was an experience hahaha kat was pissed. i think she might have melted down if it had taken any longer. it should have taken 30 minutes to get to the place he was at, but the gps took us all over the place and then he didn't really know where he was and it was craziness and took like an hour to get there. hahaha and then there was a tornado warning and kat freaked :) i wish i would have recorded it. i would set it as my ringtone ;) she was like "great what next?! we're gonna get struck by lightning and then drive off a cliff and be mauled by bears?!" hahahaha it was friggin awesome!! umm so we pick up her friend tucker and then we went to macadoos for a delightful cinnamon sensation. God's gift to the Earth. just sayin :) ummm she dropped me back at my dorm and then me and hannah went to sonic flood at the awakening which was alright i suppose. we met up with jeff and dylan and michelle at the tilly and played Life and egyptian rat screw. twas a good time. so we were there till like 2. i went back and watched...



and



so yeah that took some time :)
ahahaha
anyways yuhh, sunday i went to church with daniel and then we went out to lunch with some of his friends. i got to know some of the people which was tight and i'm actually going on a sleep over with those people this friday those that'll be tight. the girls that i met invited me to with them to get my ears pierced. so i was gonna get half way between like the top and the bottom pierced and we were gonna do it at walmart cause it's cheap.. but the walmarts in lynchburg stopped piercing ears and it's like $87 to get your ears pierced at claires. so not worth it. so we didn't get anything pierced. then i went to dinner and the the clab with hannah and uriah and jeremy. we got bored and went to the dollar theater later though and saw unknown with one of uriah's friends and yuhh. it was chill.
can i just say i hate being a girl some times. boys are sooo lucky they dont have to go through pms. not a period. just pms. like foreals i would be fine with having a period. like yeah it's annoying, but i could deal with it, but friggin pms. ughhh it pisses me off. and i'm one of the lucky ones (at least for now) since i dont get cramps. i just feel like dump all the time. like i'm crazy. depressed and angry at the same time hahahahahaha and sleepy. like i'm always tired but when i'm pmsing it's 9872384237 times worse. so since this months pms has been so bad my mom thinks i need to go to the doctor and get stuff altered which i kinda do. i just want to see my mom and my dog and my dad and carlton. i miss my town dude. like i love liberty and my friends here but like i dunno i miss my city and my family and friends and stuff. i'm stoked for summer.

****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************bro can i jjust say that umm yeah i'm going to see friggin KE$HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KLALAKSDJOCIAJROAQEJRF;ALKSDJ;KD JCAOIVJ A;DOVKJAS;DL VKAJAS; DKVAS;ODJAS ;DOVJADS; KVJA;DLKJ EOFAIUERFHAU IHFAKDJ ASDV JA;OIDJS D;KIJD VAS;IDJ;OSIDFA;DOIJC I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE THIS!! AND i may have BACK STAGE PASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what if i met ke$ha?!?! omgsh i dont think i could contain myself!! i would probably pee on myself hahahahahahahaha omgsh i cant waittt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more later my loves :)

sup dude

sup guys, long time since i've posted. i've actually had a life lately though so it's all good hahaha. anyways things here are awesome. :) i'm just happy and yeah tehehe

ps VCU final four!! what what?!?! i'm sooo incredibly stoked about that!! i'm actually going home with kat this weekend to watch it! :) gaaahhh soo excited :D

as of right now i'm sitting in the clab. i just finished my missions test (which is pointless almost because we can take it as many times online as we want and so i go through like 3 times and just submit without answering and then save the answers and then take it. i study the answers later to learn, but like it's open note so you're allowed to ya know? it's just pointless) and i did my math homework... and so yeah yet again i dont know what else to do hahaha i feel like i never have nearly as much homework as everyone else. it's awesome on the one hand, but on the other hand it sucks because errybody else has to study and stuff while i have nothing to do hahaha so now i sit here listening to my ke$ha playlist and watch youtube videos :)

chelsea is moving off campus next year. i'm sad on the one hand cause i love her. but on the other hand it's necessary because she's graduating know? i need to used to not having her around. and it's not like i cant still go visit her off campus and stuff all the time. it'll be chill. she's moving in with courtney who i've come to love dearly. it's weird that it's taken such a short amount of time for me to get close to her but i have. it's kinda cool :) and then they are also moving in with meagan wallace. some of you might remember her from new years. she came and stayed with me for the new years party. love her :D so that'll be fun. as for me, i think i'll be moving to the circle next semester. i'm not 100% sure but that's what i'm thinking. and then maybe spring semester i'm thinking i wanna do prayer leader. ultimately i think i wanna be an r.a. my junior or senior year. i feel like that would be so much fun haha

i went to my class advisor monday and he thinks that i should be taking 4 comms classes next semester, vcar which is desktop publishing, and then english 101. hahahaha for reals? i know i'm a comms major, but i thought you took your comms classes when you were older and he knew i was a freshman, but he said that it's better for me to start them all now because you can only take them certain semesters or whatever so i guess we'll just see what i get. i heard they've messed with the scheduling of all the classes and making them weird times and stuff because they are having so many staff cuts. omgsh that reminds me. they cut the wrestling program. i heard about it yesterday and then texted jake but he didn't tell me what happened but i asked nathan today and he said it was because the number of girls here playing sports has to be the same number as guys sports and it's 48% for girls and 52% for guys so they cut it from being a division sport into a club sport. who knows how many will actually come back next year. for them it's kinda like a slap in the face ya know? to go from being a division to being club. nathan said "it's the lowest of the low" that sucks dude. i feel bad for them not gonna lie. i know if it were me and i put that much work into a sport that was cut into a club sport i wouldn't be happy. not gonna lie.
anyways, last teusday was carlton's birthday so i'm go to his baseball (yes carlton started playing baseball this year, weird right?) practice and then i think i'll take him out to lunch for his birthday on saturday. later that night we're gonna watch the game. where? i'm not sure yet. any ideas? we were thinking maybe downtown but we're not sure yet. all i know is that it's a mad house down town. my mom went to VCU to get me the new final four t shirt and she waited for like 6 and half hours to get it. dude that's ridiculous. that's love right there :)

i came across this little girl. she's british. before you press play how old do you think she is? like 9 or 10? you're right she's 10. mmkay now you can press play.



her voice!! she sounds so good for being that young!! AMAZING!! i wish i was half that good dude!!!! ahhh kills me!!! :)

alright loves i will see you soon.
love ya :)

praise

praise :)

that's all i can do. praise God. He's so good to me. i'm finally happy with where i am. i'm finally okay with being away at school. yeah i'm not with my friends back home, but i finally have friends here. a group of friends. that actually do stuff and dont just include me because they feel like they have to. i feel like i have some normality in mylife again. i have a group of people here toactually go out with. i was beginning to think that it would never happen but God has provided. praise to he who rules. :) forget snobby girls who think they're better than you. forget people who prejudge you. i love these kids and that's all that matters. hahahaha if those girls wanna talk about me. fine. they're just making me MORE famous ;)



love ya :)

So I know I didn't post regularly this trip. But I decided that it would just be easier to type all of it into one blog instead of like 8 new posts at once. It wasn't my fault I didn't post either there was no Internet in that church! It's chill though I'll post now :)

So we got there Saturday morning and it was like we had all been up for like 48 hours straight. Crazy ridiculous I know hahaha anyways we get to the church and they let us sleep for like an hour before it's time to start training and stuff so we do that for like five hours and then we find out that we have to start our childrens ministry the next day! Shock to me considering we had only had a little training and didn't even know what all we were going to be painting at that point. So okay change in plans I decided I'll just post the first day post since it's longest hahaha but yeah anyways so the next day we went back out to work with the same kids and they were so excited and brought their papers back and just it was incredible. Then that night we went out to do adult ministry. What it was was we went out to the Lincoln mall in south beach and set up the preach-o-matic (which is basically a big easel) and the black light and just painted and preached and passed out tracks to people and talked to people who had questions and yeah. Amazing. One conversation that really sticks out to me was one with this hispanic guy from Europe who believes in some.. i dont know. like some prophet that's living today and that is like the return of Jesus.. yeah right okay dude. he straight yelled at me and i was like oh no sir.. so i walked off and let phil deal hahahaha whatever.

all in all the trip was amazing and i met some really amazing people. i'm soo thankful for them. i know i sound all sentimental, but yall know how i've been struggling this whole year and it's just like God finally put people in my life that i feel like i can hang out with and that aren't judgemental and are genuinely fun. like tonight we went out and watched nacho libre then played apple to apples.

i'll finish this one tomorrow for sure, i'm soo tired right now :)
peace and blessings loves :)

just got in from miami. i'll post tomorrow when i'm not so tired :) here's the song that's stuck in my head right now though :))))

Miami day 1

Hello loves!! I miss you!! I'm having an awesome time in Miami though!! Aside from passing out twice last night and ya know the crazy twitching stuff everything been good hahaha stupid weird car sickness patches. Anyways today we went out to this really ghetto neighborhood in Miami and so many kids came out to listen to the story and play a game and do hangman and stuff. It was amazing. They loved it and so did the parents. Simply amazing! God is at work in their hearts already. We drove around lookin for a good place to set up our stuff and when the leader stopped for help the first person he spoke to was a man who had been out of jail for five years and became a christian and was so thrilled we were there. He helped us gather kids and pulled this huge (and by huge I mean I have never seen a speaker that went all the way to the ceiling unless it was in like an auditorium or somethin hahaha but anyways it showed just how involved God is. Even down to the smallest things ya know? Later on we played games with the kids where they ran under the parachute to the otherwise but they started going under and beating the crap out of each other and cussing at the little kids after they pushed them down. It broke my heart but I was like Elizabeth no bigs you can do this. But then two kids actually came ou and started fighting. Punching kicking. The whole nine yards. Then he one kid picks up a rock and beams it at the other kid in the crouch. Iall the other kids kinda went about their business. I was hanging out with some but they weren't phased. They see this kind of violence all the time. Everyday. Between their siblings, street kids, parents, people who aren't their parents. They grow up in such pessimism towards one another. I came back and lost it. How blessed am I? I know my childhood was kinda messed up. But at least physical violence was never part of it. Verbal stuff but these kids get that two. These kids are getting hit with a double whammy. I can't imagine. They need us. But then after we left the kids we went to the spot where all the college kids will be where we're go na be preaching tomorrow night and we prayed ans afterwards all the other people in our group (haha yeah I'm the only one from the "city" aka they all live on farms haha) and they were just sayin how the people looked so disappointed. Like they were spending all this money (when I say all this money of mean like $30 for one appetizer at a "cheap" restaurant) and yet they weren't filling that gap in their heart. I couldn't tell the difference. That shows just how complacent and spoiled I've become. How sad. But then I came back here and pulled out my Binle and found a verse in Psalm 119 (I don't remeber the refernece and I can't look it up cause everyones asleep but I've been going through Psalm 119 lately just cause it's really long haha) and it said something along the lines of my God how I love your word. I cherish your law and seek only what is within. But somehow it tied in there how it was like the only thing he needed as long as he had God and the law. David was hated. Yet.. Even though he could be disowning God he says dude I love you and your word so much that I can't get enough of it! Crazy!! That's when I thought. God I'm so selfish and have taken your word for granted. I'm not gonna lie I have a really hard time keeping up with a quiet time. I've been getting better recently but like how complacent I am with my own bible when there are people all over the world that are killed every day for having even one page out of the bible. I need to step it up. No more excuses. God you are the center of my life. You have been and always will be. Help me to treasure your word as the people that are pursecueted do.

So I'm sure there are tons if typos and I'm sorry I'm typing this on my iPod. But if y'all think about it will you just pray for these kids that are hearing the word and that they might come to know the Lord,but that they would be vessels to their families that they might find the Lord too. Also for the people were gonna meet tomorrow night. That their hearts will be willing to receive. Finally will you pray for me for two things. 1) from distractions from other members on this trip. Boys'll getcha haha and 2) just that me as well as the other members would just be filled with the holy spirit and for just God to shine through and not any of us. Oh yeah third one of the guys on the team already mentioned just from the prayer at the strip how difficult it already was not to lust for other women and not gonna lie I can understand that. There are so many scandalous women around there. So I guess just a do us thing for them too. I appreciate the support guys!! It makes me so happy and if you need prayer tell me!! I love it!! And I LOVE YOU!!!

"Jesus Christ gave up his life that we might live. Therefore, whoever wishes to carry the cross for his sake must take up the proper weapons for the contest, especially those mentioned here.
First, diligence;
Second, distrust of self;
Third, confidence in God;
Fourth, remembrance of the Passion;
Fifth, mindfulness of one's own death;
Sixth, remembrance of God's glory;
Seventh, the injunctions of Sacred Scripture following the example of Jesus Christ in the desert." - On the Seven Spiritual Weapons by Saint Catharine of Bologna

okay can i just say that i love the quote above? and no i'm not saying i believe in talking to the saints (catholics dont pray to them they just ask them to speak to God on behalf of them) the only reason i decided to look anything about the saints up was because i couldn't find my car sickness patches and chelsea (who is catholic and God bless her) told me she would pray to saint anthony for me. at first i didn't quite understand. i've heard of the saints like saint patrick and saint peter but i never really questioned what saints were or who or anything really. they were just other names to me. but when chelsea told me she would pray for me i got kind a interested in learning about them. i mean why shouldn't i? should i not be knowledgeable about other cultures and religion? i find it interesting that there are so many saints. you talk to a saint based on your need or what you've been through or on behalf of whatever the person your praying for is going through. personally do i believe in the speaking with the saints? no. i dont believe that i know enough about it to just be like okay saints lets talk. but i do really think that some of them had beutiful lives devoted to the Lord. and some of them had some really awesome things to say. for example i found that quote above from the patron saint catharine of bologna. she is the patron saint of the arts and artists which is what drew me to read about her. when i read up on her she devoted much of her life just to establish these Poor Clare monasteries, but it wasn't how she evangelized or anything like that that she drew people into the faith, it was through her humble and holy way of living. she "represents teh saints who served the Lord in obscurity." according to the american catholic organization. now again i'm not saying i believe in the saints, i just really found her quote to be awesome. oh and the reason she's the patron saint of artists and arts is because she painted haha. just sayin that's purty cool :) anyways yeah i dunno if anyone else would find it interesting to look into the saints. i myself want to do some more research into them and see if i can find anymore incite that i might be able to live by. if you want to look at where i got my information i got it from hopefully i'll find someone else to talk about again soon, but expect more about this because i'm thoroughly interested.. :)

love you all!!

rockfish

ps this is where i'm gonna be working this summer :) in case you wanted to see ;)


just sayin ;)

is it bad?

is it wrong that i found this song catchy and funny? hahaha

i am the man in the mirror.
my reflection, i aspire to be.
in your relfection what do you see?

a false fault or a masterpiece?

but a masterpiece starts with a single stroke,
and an empire starts in an open field.
i am the man in the mirror.
but a masterpiece starts with a single stroke.
if we could all be steadfast suddenly,
then we'd never build a life worth living.
so let us restore each other.
i am the man in the mirror.
my relfection, i aspire to be.
in your reflection what do you see?

false fault or a masterpiece?

i am the man in the mirror.
the mirror.
so let us restore each other,
not with haste, but gently,

for an empty cup cannot fill another.

a blank canvas will later be priceless
and the love that we build will be endless

though we stumble, we will not fall.
i am the man in the mirror.
my relfection, i aspire to be.
in your reflection what do you see?

false fault or a masterpiece
we will build masterpieces out of these faults.

i am the man in the mirror.
so when i stare back into my own eyes
i try to peer past, and try to understand.

my imperfections compose my composure
and i can live with them and you will live by me.

so let us restore each other, not with haste
but gently,

for an empty cup cannot fill another.

a day of good news :)

so three things.

1.
i created and posted my first youtube video today :D hahaha pretty rough, but i was proud anyways. so yeah. here's the embedding.

hit it :)

2.
i found out today that i got the job at rockfish this summer! i'm totally stoked! i had a strong feeling that i was supposed to do it this summer and well i prayed and was like God if i'm supposed to do this just lemme get the job and that way i'll know i'm supposed to be there and so yeah i called Braxton (hiring manager) today to follow up on my application and he was like wow you didn't get my email? yeah we hired you like last week. hahahaha so yeah :) if everything goes right i'll work there this summer, be off all may and then go off and live there for the summer. i'm taking the three days for warped tour off and then the week of the fourth of july to go to the beach with my family so that'll be chill. i think colin may go with us. but if i do end up living there this summer errybody should come and visit me. it's like a four hour drive, but they have a hotel there and you can stay there and yeah :) it would be fun!

3.
I LEAVE FOR MIAMI FRIDAY!! AHHHH SO STOKED!!

love you :)

learn

i need to accept that when a friend isn't acting like a friend. it's not that they dont care. it's just that you dont know them like you want to anymore.