"Jesus Christ gave up his life that we might live. Therefore, whoever wishes to carry the cross for his sake must take up the proper weapons for the contest, especially those mentioned here.
First, diligence;
Second, distrust of self;
Third, confidence in God;
Fourth, remembrance of the Passion;
Fifth, mindfulness of one's own death;
Sixth, remembrance of God's glory;
Seventh, the injunctions of Sacred Scripture following the example of Jesus Christ in the desert." - On the Seven Spiritual Weapons by Saint Catharine of Bologna

okay can i just say that i love the quote above? and no i'm not saying i believe in talking to the saints (catholics dont pray to them they just ask them to speak to God on behalf of them) the only reason i decided to look anything about the saints up was because i couldn't find my car sickness patches and chelsea (who is catholic and God bless her) told me she would pray to saint anthony for me. at first i didn't quite understand. i've heard of the saints like saint patrick and saint peter but i never really questioned what saints were or who or anything really. they were just other names to me. but when chelsea told me she would pray for me i got kind a interested in learning about them. i mean why shouldn't i? should i not be knowledgeable about other cultures and religion? i find it interesting that there are so many saints. you talk to a saint based on your need or what you've been through or on behalf of whatever the person your praying for is going through. personally do i believe in the speaking with the saints? no. i dont believe that i know enough about it to just be like okay saints lets talk. but i do really think that some of them had beutiful lives devoted to the Lord. and some of them had some really awesome things to say. for example i found that quote above from the patron saint catharine of bologna. she is the patron saint of the arts and artists which is what drew me to read about her. when i read up on her she devoted much of her life just to establish these Poor Clare monasteries, but it wasn't how she evangelized or anything like that that she drew people into the faith, it was through her humble and holy way of living. she "represents teh saints who served the Lord in obscurity." according to the american catholic organization. now again i'm not saying i believe in the saints, i just really found her quote to be awesome. oh and the reason she's the patron saint of artists and arts is because she painted haha. just sayin that's purty cool :) anyways yeah i dunno if anyone else would find it interesting to look into the saints. i myself want to do some more research into them and see if i can find anymore incite that i might be able to live by. if you want to look at where i got my information i got it from hopefully i'll find someone else to talk about again soon, but expect more about this because i'm thoroughly interested.. :)

love you all!!

rockfish

ps this is where i'm gonna be working this summer :) in case you wanted to see ;)


just sayin ;)

is it bad?

is it wrong that i found this song catchy and funny? hahaha

i am the man in the mirror.
my reflection, i aspire to be.
in your relfection what do you see?

a false fault or a masterpiece?

but a masterpiece starts with a single stroke,
and an empire starts in an open field.
i am the man in the mirror.
but a masterpiece starts with a single stroke.
if we could all be steadfast suddenly,
then we'd never build a life worth living.
so let us restore each other.
i am the man in the mirror.
my relfection, i aspire to be.
in your reflection what do you see?

false fault or a masterpiece?

i am the man in the mirror.
the mirror.
so let us restore each other,
not with haste, but gently,

for an empty cup cannot fill another.

a blank canvas will later be priceless
and the love that we build will be endless

though we stumble, we will not fall.
i am the man in the mirror.
my relfection, i aspire to be.
in your reflection what do you see?

false fault or a masterpiece
we will build masterpieces out of these faults.

i am the man in the mirror.
so when i stare back into my own eyes
i try to peer past, and try to understand.

my imperfections compose my composure
and i can live with them and you will live by me.

so let us restore each other, not with haste
but gently,

for an empty cup cannot fill another.

a day of good news :)

so three things.

1.
i created and posted my first youtube video today :D hahaha pretty rough, but i was proud anyways. so yeah. here's the embedding.

hit it :)

2.
i found out today that i got the job at rockfish this summer! i'm totally stoked! i had a strong feeling that i was supposed to do it this summer and well i prayed and was like God if i'm supposed to do this just lemme get the job and that way i'll know i'm supposed to be there and so yeah i called Braxton (hiring manager) today to follow up on my application and he was like wow you didn't get my email? yeah we hired you like last week. hahahaha so yeah :) if everything goes right i'll work there this summer, be off all may and then go off and live there for the summer. i'm taking the three days for warped tour off and then the week of the fourth of july to go to the beach with my family so that'll be chill. i think colin may go with us. but if i do end up living there this summer errybody should come and visit me. it's like a four hour drive, but they have a hotel there and you can stay there and yeah :) it would be fun!

3.
I LEAVE FOR MIAMI FRIDAY!! AHHHH SO STOKED!!

love you :)

learn

i need to accept that when a friend isn't acting like a friend. it's not that they dont care. it's just that you dont know them like you want to anymore.

Colin Lee Harris

Just curious. Gah I don't know what my deal is. And in advance I apologize for any weird words or sayings cause I'm typing this on my iPod. But yeah I dunno. It's like this. Usually Colin comes back here for a break and i'm all happy ans whatever cause that's one of my bet friends ans best friends make me happy, and then he goes home and I'm sad for like twenty minutes hut I ultimately put him in the back of my head. But it's different this time. Colin came for two weeks at Christmas ans then he left to go back to Texas. His home. And this time I can't get him off my brain. I'm sure he doesn't have the same problem. I just don't understand why it's so much more in my brain this time know? We both have our own lives and we ourselves talk at least once a week. So it's not like I'm post pardom anxty from not talking to him cause I do. You're proba thinking ah Elizabeth you heart him and I do but I don't know if you can truely love someone when you see them like twice a year. Especially after everything with Alex ans whatever. It wasn't like he couldn't see me and vice versa and things turned out badly. Why the heck would I do that to myself again? I wouldn't. I can't do that again and Colin is way to busy and has so many better things to do than worry about a relationship in friggin Virginia. So yeah that can't be it just to clear up. I just.. I dunno. There are so many times when I just wanna hug him and talk about stupid things and drive around down town and walk around Carey street because it's the "ghetto" and go to the beach. I just miss that boy. I really do. And now I'm sitting in my math class waitin for it to start and I'm tearing up. Gosh I'm so gay hahaha I love y'all thanks for letting me put that out there.