keep reminding yourself that one day you wont feel this way anymore.
you are needed.
you are needed.
this life isn't bad.
i swear.
i swear.
you aren't alone.
no matter what.
no matter what.
let them live.
support.
support.
it's not your time love.
it's just not.


and can i just say that to every stupid lovey dovey couple that displays all their stupid affection to the world here at liberty. i'm going to mow you down one day, i'm simply just going to walk between you two "love birds" and tell you to leave room for Jesus.

Drag my hand behind you like a chain behind a truck.
Sparks over your carpet while I chase you through the darkness.
Somebody's supposed to fall in love, but nobody even calls.
Somebody's supposed to...

Tear this place apart until you find me hiding, silently I wait.
You'll be excited just to see me someday. Everything's ok.

Summer and gold throw their colors at the dark,
a mother tells her son, "Darling look at the sparks."
But you hold my attention without even trying.
A beautiful reflection from firework eyes,
but never means forever.
Desperation and hanging in the backyard at night.
Somebody's supposed to fall in love.

Tear this place apart until you find me hiding, silently I wait.
You'll be excited just to see me someday. Everything's ok.

Love, don't forget to bleed so slowly.
Haunted hearts we melt over the fabric of your floor.
I'm holdin' her just like she's gold, but
I've been running from the sun. Oh no, no.
And if I ever catch the ones who hurt you,
I'm hoping that God looks away this time.
Why would I let you go?

Tear this place apart until you find me hiding, silently I wait.
You'll be excited just to see me someday. Everything's ok.

close to letting go of what ive held so near.. but im still not sure.

no way

feelings of mixed frustration, longing, and desire. frustration on the subject of not knowing what in the world i'm doing. longing for someone to hold me and just say everything'll be ok. and desire to feel like confident again.

i know God can be all these things, but i just feel like.. alone. i know i'm not. i think that's another bit of the frustration.

the only one?

so i'm sure everyone knows about me and alex's break up. it's disappointing about how everything went down, but in all honesty i've known for a while i shouldn't have been in that relationship, God really put it on my heart, and i finally gave it up to God and said look if I'm not supposed to be in this relationship have him break up with me because i know i can't do it myself. and then two days later he did. i know it's the right thing. i mean the way everything went down, like i said kinda really sucked, but all in all i'm fine and he's fine and we're all fine. so anyways, it's kinda nice being single, but i really miss having like a hand to hold and being held. that kinda sucks, but i'll get by. there is one guy that i'm friends with here that's really caught my eye. i don't think i would date him, at least not soon. i barely remember what the beginnings of a relationship looks like, but he's one of those people i just can't stop thinking about ya know? i kinda don't like it cause i'm like elizabeth omgsh like for real alex JUST broke up with you like two weeks ago, you need to chill, but it's like i can't. i hope you guys don't think poorly of me cause it's not like i can help it ya know? his name is mike. he's really sweet and funny. omgsh he's like 6 foot 3 and has the hands of a giant (i like big hands, i just like how my hands can look so small in comparison since really not too much else about me is small except for my mouth size, ear lobes, and right nostril). see i go off on a little mini tangent. ughh. i don't like it. stupid boy needs to stop being himself. imma kick him. anyways anyways anyways, i'm going out with him and some other people this friday and we're gonna have a movie night at the inn which'll be fun and then saturday i don't know what i'm doing saturday, hopefully something fun. so yeah. anyways, that is all.

i love you!!

mmmm :)

ahh sleep :)

it's been soo long since i've posted. i haven't been able to blog since i've gotten here though. it's been hard. originially it was because it reminded me so much of home and i would just start bawwwwwling. hahaha but once classes started it because also because of like homework and stuff. actually i really need to go back and study, but i just wanted to let you know that i love and miss all of you!!

missy brown, ellory green, kay harris, kim greenshields, stephanie dawkins, meagan fletcher, cara marie PARKER :), elsbeth mccermc, EVERYONE!! i'll post more later



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