i want to be ferly. just sayin.





love.

romeo. where are you? i'm tired of being alone here.

ah life

life is weird. you go from being in a drear mood to being happy and then to being inquizative to rockin out and you can do all that in a matter of one day! it kills me. i sometimes think that God put A.D.D. into the world for His own humor :)

anyways, i think i've picked a major. i didn't mention it yet because i really wanted to pray on it and i just feel like God might be calling me to do advertising with a minor in business so that's purty exciting :) from what i understand i'll be able to do the marketing aspect as well as the whole creative thing which is what i'm super crazy stoked about. it's like God created a major just for me :) two of my favorite things, marketing and art :) how funn!!


miami :)
so i'm going to miami for spring break!!!! only 16 days!!! ahhhh! i'm soooo incredibly excited!! let me just say!! i can not even wait!! i'm going with open air missions!! i'll post more about what we're doing later, i'm just too lazy and tired to right now :/ lo siento! but thank you Lord for once again reaffirming how much you love me and have a plan for me. not gonna lie i forget that sometimes. God definately does have something special in store though so that's always good to know :) so if you think about it please pray for our transportation down there because as of right now we dont have one. it'll come through for sure, but it's just the anticipation is killing me! i wanna be there now!!! hahaha and also please pray for the people down there, that God would start to soften their hearts and prepare them for our ministry. that would be very appreciated! :)

chelsea is moving out thursday or friday :( long story that doesn't need to be said in detail. like on the one hand it's kinda good cause like we both need to get health because i'm definately not healthy in the least. but it's still sad cause she's my best friend here ya know? i dont know. our relationship isn't completely healthy and i understand that, but hopefully this move will do nothing but strengthen us. that's what i pray at least. because i dont have anyone else here i trust. no one. i mean yeah allison the r.a. but that's it. i ball everything up here because i dont trust anyone and yeah it's hard, but it's how i was raised, and how i've always had to do things. i dont want to be a bother. i'm just really praying that God works on that with me. because right now i'm working on getting help with some stuff and not gonna lie, i went to the student care office and had to fill out paper work where they just straight ask you questions and i sat in there for two hours and cried. it's so hard to honestly answer questions about all the things you struggle with. self image, respect, forgiveness, and so many other things. it just reminded me of how broken i am. i have to remember that regardless God loves me. He looks at me and sees nothing but beauty. so that's what i'm gonna aspire to find in myself.

i love you guys and i'll post more later!!

...i plead to change my life.
just before i dream.
and wake to realize the
change is inside of me...

i'm getting this tattooed on me.. just not in the same spot ;D

to plant a seed

we've planted a seed, an ever growing wonder to a beautiful tree.
grow.
each branch outstretched and different from the last.
where the old have broken, some easier than the last.
the right ones have grown in to fill in the gaps.
and all are equal in love and trust.
and all are apart of something so much bigger than this.
through the trials our tongues are tired, to trying times, so many unsaid lines.
our lives were over at so many moments.
so many moments.
so many.
and now they're all just beginning.
and now they're all just beginning.
i have never been so consumed and i have never loved it more.
to be devoted to letting all see what it is to live in the love of others.
to live in the love of my brothers.
and spilling back all that anyone has ever spilled for me.
to show that to those who have never seen.
four years ago we planted a seed.
found that foundation that we need.
strived for the perfect balance to show love and show compassion.
and our vision for this world will not die when we are dead.
my future started with the first note i ever played.
the first note that was ever sang.
when we started living with purpose and writing with meaning.
this is what we were made for.
every day i live this future.

by we came as romans

romance me

this song makes me so incredibly happy. i dunno. like as much as i like guys and i do. i want God to be who i see in that role at this point in my life. that's the kind of romance that i want.

and yes i know that the spanish subtitles are there (ps. they dont always match up) haha but it was the coolest looking one and i dunno i like it

I love this tattoo. It's kinda like the feather one I posted not too long ago. I think maybe I would want something like this if I could but it's beaitiful to me:)