i keep telling myself, tonight is going to be fun. it is. i'm gonna have a good time. but it's like no matter what there's always drama. gosh i hate drama. it makes my stomach hurt. as soon as chels gets back tomorrow the whole room is going to explode and everyone is going to be upset. i love my roomates. i do, but my nerves are shot. i feel like i'm carrying around a bag full of rocks and no one else can really help me out. it sucks. i'll just have fun while i can and wait for the pressure to build until finally it'll pop.

today today caloo calayy :) i'm just happy. he makes me smile. my roomates make me smile. everything is just good. the room is dirty yeah, but i love chelsea still. we had a lovely mexican food dinner at pueblo viejo tonight. me chels lizzie and megs. it was awesome. and then they declined both of lizzie's cards so i had to pay for the other half of her meal. whoooopsies. hahaha. my friends make me smile. last night i hung out with jake and kat. hahahaha gosh story of my life. going out to eat. we went to hibachi. it was just fun hanging out the three of us. i love when we do that. i miss my girls. step. kim. elsb. jewels. eric. but im hanging out a lot more than i was last semester. i'm trying to stay busy which is really helpful. i think i've hung out with kelsey and meagan more than anyone. oh and lizzie too. i'm waiting for her to hate me again so we'll see.

i think i found the church i wanna be a part of. i really like the church lizzie took me to sunday morning. it's called first community. it's super modern. its' also where something called the new muse is. i've never been and i have no clue what that is, but sounds cool. the worship is good and the message is awesome. so i wanna go back and possibly get involved at some point. and then i went to brentwood sunday night with meagan and that was awesome too. i really really loved that. so i think i'll just start going to both :) tehehehehe

this might be a sin, but i've probably listened to i just had sex 5 times today. i can sing it word for word.

closing time.
time for you to go out, go out into the world.
closing time.
turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
closing time.
one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
closing time.
you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.

i know who I want to take me home.
i know who I want to take me home.
i know who I want to take me home.
take me home...

closing time.
time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
closing time.
this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters come.
so gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits.
I hope you have found a friend.
closing time.
every new beginning comes from some other beginning'send.

yeah, I know who I want to take me home.
i know who I want to take me home.
i know who I want to take me home.
take me home...

closing time.
time for you to go back to the places you will be from...

i know who I want to take me home.
i know who I want to take me home.
i know who I want to take me home.
take me home...

closing time.
every new beginning comes from some other beginning'send...

i've been beaten down.
i've been kicked around.
but she takes it all for me.
and i lost my faith
in my darkest days
she makes me want to believe.

they call her love love love love love.
they call her love love love love love.
she is love, and she is all i need.

well i had my ways, they were all in vain,
but she waited patiently.
it was all the same, all my pride and shame,
and she put me on my feet.

they call her love love love love love
they call her love love love love love
they call her love love love love love
she is love, and she is all i need.

and when that world slows down,
dear and when those stars burn out here,
oh she'll be there, yes she'll be there.

they call her love love love love love
they call her love love love love love
they call her love love love love love.

she is love, and she is all i need
she is love, and she is all i need
she is love, and she is all i need.

chelsea

dear chelsea amerlia gaudiosea,

i heart you. you are evil. you like sweat pants. you also like socks and chocolate. we enjoy "watching" movies and gansgter dancing. we have baby bears that love one another so very much. and it's also very fun to sneakily insult one another behind or in front of other people with hand gestures. oreos are yummy. we go bird watching frequently and thoroughly enjoy the rot.

love always,
elizabeth louise seward

highlighter party

i want to. bad.

my second home

i'm back at school :)

it's hard to leave your family after a month, but at the same time it's easy. i was ready to leave the house because i wanna be on my own and not have to like always tell someone where i'm going, but when i saw my mom crying as she hugged me goodbye i almost let loose and cried too. i love my mom even though she annoys me i love her so much and she's one of my best friends. my dad too. i'm sad he didn't get to come with us. ugh i need to stop talking about this cause it's making me bummed out :/

i am happy to be back though! i'm all settled in my little nook of the room and whatever so that's a good thing :)

anyways i still have to go and get my text books. lizzie said the line when she went was an hour and a half long. i think i'll just wait until tomorrow to get em. ugh boots stupid books.

i need to sign up for old testament cause i'm only signed up for like 13 creds right now.
drawing 1
math
gned 102
icst 201

so yeah. basically i'm taking nothing. haha